This year carries the energy of the Fire Horse, a symbol of movement, courage, leadership, travel and freedom. While many have already begun to feel this shift, energetically we are still moving through the final phase of the Year of the Snake, with the transition into full Fire Horse energy occurring on February 17. This in-between space can feel like a spiritual and emotional limbo, where old beliefs, habits, relationships and identities begin to shed, while a stronger pull toward expansion, abundance and fire-led energy starts to emerge. If you are feeling unsettled, reflective, or caught between what no longer fits and what is trying to come through, this is part of that transition, and a reminder that you are right where you are meant to be.
For me, this energetic shift has marked a moment where continuing to push forward in the same way no longer felt honest or sustainable.
Over the next few weeks I will be quieter, not because I am stepping away from my work or the community I care deeply about, but because I am choosing a personal reset that has been building for some time. This is a deliberate pause to tend to my health, my nervous system and my inner world, rather than continuing to manage symptoms or move through life on momentum alone.
Part of this reset involves travelling to Colombia to undertake an ayahuasca journey. This is not something I am approaching lightly or as a trend, but as a conscious decision to step away from numbing behaviours, come off prescription medication, and learn how to truly listen to my body rather than override it. Ayahuasca is a traditional plant-based medicine used for generations by Indigenous cultures in the Amazon, typically in guided ceremonial settings to support deep reflection, emotional processing, and awareness of mind–body patterns. For many years I have labelled what I experience as anxiety and focused on coping strategies, when what I am now seeking is a deeper understanding of the root causes and a more grounded, embodied presence in my life.
There is also a significant layer around control, particularly in business. I have spent years building, leading and holding a great deal, and this season is asking me to loosen my grip, to trust others to carry things without me, and to sit with the discomfort that comes from not being in charge of every outcome. This is a necessary part of my growth, even when it feels unfamiliar.
Alongside this, there is personal change unfolding in my life, this journey is giving me the space to do that without pressure or performance. At a deeper level, this time is about soul searching. It is about stripping back identity, success, money, ego and achievement and asking who I am without those things, and what genuinely brings me joy. Even with external wins, life has not always felt happy, and I am no longer interested in bypassing that truth or filling the space with more work.
I will be journalling throughout this time and capturing reflections, photos and video, but I am intentionally choosing not to share everything as it happens. Some experiences need to be fully lived and integrated before they can be spoken about with clarity and responsibility. I will share more when I return and when I can do so in a way that is grounded and honest rather than reactive.
For those who are curious about ayahuasca and the context of this kind of journey, the latest episode of What Are We Drinking? with Matt Gamble offers a thoughtful and open conversation about his experience in Colombia and what it brought into his life. It is there for anyone wanting to understand more, without me needing to explain it all here.
Thank you for allowing me the space to move through this season intentionally. I look forward to returning with greater clarity, deeper presence and a different relationship to leadership that is rooted in sustainability rather than survival.
